「 Because 」

I can rise like the sun or scum because i have the power of both worlds, good and evil. I am human.

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deja vu... 10:13 PM
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「 Burn Out 」

a candle can only burn for so long..

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deja vu... 1:30 PM
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「 The Walking Dead Lusts 」

love is not all

the faithful appalled

if i could be happy

to feed your thoughts

with memories

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deja vu... 1:27 PM
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「 It's 」

Dreamagination

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deja vu... 1:26 PM
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「 Casts 」

Minor or major, in life we all have roles to play..

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deja vu... 1:25 PM
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「 You 」

It's never more and never less that i think about you..

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deja vu... 1:22 PM
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「 Boo 」

let the audience boo and hiss you on stage, at least they're having fun..

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deja vu... 1:21 PM
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「 Fame & Fortunes Faded 」

All we ever needed was a vaccine against the temptations of the designer skyline.

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deja vu... 2:21 PM
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「 Poison 」

in the desolate streets

of blinding blur city lights

are lanes burdened with sorrow

and the setting sun in mind

is shaped in her smile

filching sips from the Devil's arm

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deja vu... 11:46 PM
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「 Fret Not/Special One 」

for the daylight drown even stars that burn bright.

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deja vu... 1:07 PM
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「 Threads 」

now despised

he spites the light

his solace is respite

in time, colder ice

frozen, his hands are tried

fastening the haste of time

fortunes he blamed

soon enough

tokens claimed

from the Devil who threads

Calamity...

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deja vu... 11:50 AM
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「 To Prevail 」

start a spark of doubt against your fear

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deja vu... 11:21 PM
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「 Sheeps 」

reiterates

retaliate!

up against the wall

moulded by fear

bitter

better!

death by the sword

than be weary

deaf are you?

to hear them,

those who have triumphed!

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deja vu... 1:47 AM
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「 Fond 」

when love,

you draw nigh

slay me not with goodbye

your beauty,

no tongue can speak

for even the winds have stuttered

your skin,

is gold

like smooth wine at night

sunlight's pleasure and delight

for your eyes,

has had the moon weep

a wish if he could make,

to keep them awake

each and every night..

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deja vu... 1:34 AM
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「 The Poet Wrote 」

Inch sized smile

Razor blades

Severed heart

Rose petals marred by perpetual tears

Slapped me with thy void

To stitch up our past

I drape thy memories of bliss with lust

The unrequited love,

once again triumph

The poet then last wrote:

a man so capable in love

now liveth through gin

and soulless bosoms

for love is blind

to see the dangers and misfortunes

like razor blades,

my careless eye can stand witness

to cuts, blood and bruises

For love, frail yet severing

and to believe in love,

ever since her after

would be a shameful burden

upon this forsaken soul

I will not falter.

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deja vu... 5:54 PM
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「 Chance 」

in demise when love denied

this, her heart despised

with hope no longer in sight

yes, she died that night

to disguise her despair,

phantoms she burned with time

...but time proved

and deprived her of a life

sure her heart would delight

if love reprised at first sight

if spite she had not

the world outside

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deja vu... 5:52 PM
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「 A Song For The Victims & The Dead 」

Searching my memory
Rummaging through the past
for the moment you bade farewell
I must have had it misplaced
or it would have lingered on in my head
This abandonment perforates my heart each day
now i can only mourn
for this plight i face
each time i die and awake

Where then do i get an embrace such as yours
much gentler than the breeze i once felt?
Death, a thief who steals from one
and leaves the rest of us victims
Victims of loss and loneliness
Victims of life when the void one then left is too much
for your heart to bear

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deja vu... 5:59 PM
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「 August 」

Good night dear friend

Soon this bitter will end

Capsules of freedom in my hands

Gentle waves, softly sang

Her sublime aura,

an alcoholic's slake

Each sip unveil her seductive dance

Lady Quietus, so close to my breath

A passionate strife for life i then bear

Too long my heart been wilt

Abashed i took my stand, robed in despair

my head frailly tilt in thirst for her lips

Armed with supreme inebriety,

in surrendered stance i succumb to her glare

And into the perpetual bliss i then evanesced

when we at long last kissed..

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deja vu... 2:05 AM
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「 A Buoy 」

With sedulous conviction i set sail
as the gentle breeze erase
her memories began to fade..

Nay! Halt i say!
bring forth the euthanasia for this state
read no more the epitaph of my fate!

Damn ye not my heart!
for love is pain she hath forewarned
Her rapture, too soon become a woe

I damn ye not O heart!
even as you wander in quest for her warmth

I damn thee not O heart!
for we are all fools who drown in yearn for her love..

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deja vu... 2:01 AM
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「 Gauche Fool 」

Even if i bore brunt of thy brute
and you left my side bearing me with incongruous life, 
thou art my trestle.

O how with such deft you encroached my skies!

Always blind to your meritorious display of your plots 
when you add semblance of saccharine in thy verses
Thou art my trestle.

Lock me up in thy gaol
So i could live off knowing I'm your own 
Thou art my trestle.

Perturb me not no more, 
my voice quavers
Love, thou art my trestle..

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deja vu... 11:05 PM
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「 Wrists 」

Lest do clash O troubled heart and murdered soul

Friends appear with resonance of hope, one thousand fold

Suicide a glamour to the ones felt hollow

Death, her beauty seldom foretold

Her strangles, mere nonchalance so graceful

Yet i bespeak to be wrapped in her bosom

Warn me not of her augur 

Selfish and foolish I, they may argue

For only She would claim my undying sorrow,

chase away the ghosts of slain fiends, I'm sure....

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deja vu... 2:24 PM
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「 Sweet Bitter 」

True Love, 'twas really most a mere illusion of fools.

This sweet folly, no youth escape.

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deja vu... 12:59 AM
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「 Helmet 」

I need a gun to keep myself from harm

Can't even trust the air i breathe these days

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deja vu... 1:52 PM
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「 The Narcoleptic 」

For if in those dreams you come, 
no longer should i be awake

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deja vu... 12:23 AM
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「 A Vow 」

Shed your sorrows my dear

Mourn no more 

for death of another morrow

Sleep.. 

This vow i take..

though Sea's tide down

The Owl's hoots drown

Great Black of the night lose his crown

The blinding Stars fade, nowhere to be found

The alluring Moon, lose her shine

For all give in to the break of dawn

But for you my darling, i will be around

Sleep my love..

Cast worries aside

For I'll be here

to greet you with kisses 

to morrow's infinite rebirth...

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deja vu... 5:10 AM
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「 A Prayer 」

No cure for your sadness 

You defied even stars

Spent your days in exile

Only to arrive at her rest

Her slumber was a wake

Oh how you had wept

remembering those days you held her close to your chest

trying days, oh trying days 

when she was not by your side

Oh Romeo, i feel as thou hath felt

for one who left a void so hard to bear

For lovers in love,

i pray that none succumb to eternal death

but live and love forever just like you and Juliet

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deja vu... 1:06 AM
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「 Trespassers 」

To trespass your lips

My fingers, they traced

Your shivers unexplained

when warmth turn to trembles

Closer, 

we edged closer

Our eyes met to a blur

so close till we blinded

For our fears had shyed

as our breath got louder

Reality, we murdered

Lovers we became

when we crashed into each other

Trespassers of our will..

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deja vu... 9:37 PM
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「 10. 」

Your waves suck me in

I won’t deny this strange

Feel you in

Arms across my frame

Take me in

Pull me under

Save my soul

Take me in under

Let me in below

Gently I’ll stroke your pain,

away, away, all your pain away

Build us a home at the bed

For you I will go the distance

Let me in

Pull me under

Swallow me whole

Deeper

Carry me in

My hands for you

My lips to yours

My palms for your tears

Made to strangle your fears

Born to slay your pain,

To love you to death

Never again will you need another

Pull me in

Take me below

Sinking into your veins,

I will taste your poison,

spit it out on the fallen fates

Drown together in each other’s embrace

I take you in

Feel you in

Need you in

Want you under

Never again will you question love and it’s blunders

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deja vu... 10:17 PM
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「 She Writes 」

There's something bout you boy.

And you've got me mesmerized.

Last night, looking into your eyes;

It was only then i realized,

How you're making me feel inside.

And i think i could live in your arms,

Stay up all night with the stars.

The moonlight provide the spark,

And i know you'd help me out of the dark.

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deja vu... 7:13 PM
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「 Lover, Be Warned.. (Pro-Cons) 」

I will..
Entice you..
Seduce you..
Embrace you..
Lift you...
You’d die for me..
Literally...

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deja vu... 12:17 PM
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「 Just A Boy In The Corner 」

Got admitted to a hospital

For nearly used a gun on myself

For my suicidal thoughts

For my state of depression

For my sorrow

My heartache

My lack of sleep

My anger

and accumulated pain

Given medication

and care

and dates with a psychiatrist

Am i going crazy?

Is it worth saving myself...?

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deja vu... 10:18 PM
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「 Why Did You..? 」

Well that is how it ends

In red and blue flashing lights

 

"You really really broke my heart that night

I wanted to break yours

I wanted you to feel the same way

 

You let an outsider in

Let him speak for you

Speak ill of me

How could you do this to me

To us

 

You broke whatever that was left

You broke it to dust

You broke it by letting someone else in

A nobody to tell us how to be

A one who wouldn’t understand what we had

Our beginning, our past, our pains and our times of happiness

 

With such disdain you treated me

I hope you are happy and glad

I hope that “nobody” can be half as good as I was for you

For you, I hope, I really do

I hope you are satisfied that I’m never coming back

Why did you do that? 

Why dear?" 

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deja vu... 6:20 PM
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「 Street With No Name 」

So long & farewell

Such harsh words to say

What have i done to make you leave?

Disappearing off like a dream

At least a dream i'd know i soon awake

This i was not prepared

For it never crossed my mind 

that i'd be without you

END

You hit my nerves too many times..

Now, all i've become is numb inside..

I can't feel a thing...

It's all dead..

A zombie i've become

and you are the only one i want to feed on...

END

You are my morphine 

and my cocaine

I stick you in my veins

and breathe you in 

I'm addicted to you my dear...

END

This horrid looking stone 

becomes a gem and shines only when in your hands my love...

END

"you can ask me 3 days after forever and i'll still feel the same for you...

ever in love with you..always loving you.."

END

in a fright every night..

closed my eyes and still i tried..

i can't...

it never is the same without you by my side...

END

then let this night never end..

let our days be this night..

let it be forever..

so i can hear you say that you love me..

over and over again..

again... - My Birthday, 2004

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deja vu... 10:16 PM
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「 And So It Ends... 」

A beast i became
When he fanned my flame
White canvas Red, if your man born with pussy came
He spoke with an accent, he's so lame
Couldn't even pronounce the word "twat" the correct way
A left and a right hook i would have gave
That pussy man of yours was busy hiding in a cunt cave
Obviously masturbating to hard gay rave
Your dad's fuckin mouth just had to get in the way
A shovel you would have needed when i have him killed in haste
Face to face with the end of days
Fear crept in and dialed three nines, the cops came and flashed the scene blue and red
Your whole family brimming with hate
Never once in my head i thought this day would, will stain

In my heart and my mind it started to rain
So heavily, it burst flames into waves
With a heavy heart and head faced down
my tears, each bore a forgotten past
our memories together flashed before my very sight
your voice i could hear
loud as thunder, so clear
as if you were near
gently whispering it in my ear

a bow i take at this stage
no regrets or hate
as i said
and like i said
look at how our fates had steered us here
who do we blame?
now i know that's why i'm here
i step up to take the blame
to take the shame

Deep down i love you dear
even now as i write
my emotions turn to fear
what have i done to deserve here

i miss that girl...i so very do......
i wanna go back to the times
those better years
God what has happened here
are all our days meant to turn stale...
were we born to love, only to fail...
just let my soul rest in broken peace...
I'm sorry i was even born.



end.

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deja vu... 2:45 AM
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「 Perfect Paper Hearts 」

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
Your man, he calls you his
The woman with a broken heart
Forgets her broken half

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
He's got chest hair
And he is big
He can cradle you in his arms to sleep

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
He can tell you stories of where he's been
Forgotten are the places where we have been

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
He's got facial hair, perfect trimmed
You say you'll marry him when he kneels

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
You say he awaits you at your window at night
just to see your face
Before he heads home to bed

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
Hope you have a perfect life
Hope you get along fine

You say he makes you paper hearts
Perfect paper hearts
After all I’ve sung and been
Imperfect is all I could ever be

if my heart was paper, it will have your name inked all over it. But my heart is tattered…, mistook for being torn… and already discarded...

Imperfect is all I could ever be… can ever be.

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deja vu... 2:42 AM
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「 It's You 」

A rare find
seldom
if yet
ye wait
if seen
ye yearn

so when cometh a rare find
this once in life
what shall thee become of
a memory
a bruise
when ye stumbled
when ye moved

though words are words
for the ones in love
precious
priceless jewels

for love
ye not snooze
yet ye lose
drowned along with a pool of fools

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deja vu... 2:06 AM
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「 Silent Illuminance Of The Deafening Truth 」

the cloud buried night sky
whose moon, nor stars be seen
catches a glimpse of day
when lightning sings

twice shy
we become spies
ever certain of uncertain times

the gift of life
when glazed with pride
the devils care to meet

the black velvet
the wind her alibi
a silent rhyme
you hear her screams

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deja vu... 1:26 AM
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「 She Heard Him Say.. 」

perishable by a say from thy lips..
my love for you in my heart, it burns eternally..
and in you i believe true love and ever afters..
in you i believe love can last forever...

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deja vu... 1:25 AM
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「 SOS 」

Better the one whose blunders are seen than the ones unseen in need.

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deja vu... 1:24 AM
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「 Ripples (A downer) 」

and then he tapped the surface of the water to ripple his reflection
his only proof of existence?
his state of depression

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deja vu... 1:22 AM
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「 03:08AM 」

Sweet dreams my love..you are in my thoughts as i lay myself to sleep..
Wishing and missing you in my arms, your smile so gentle and kind..
Your face, built like a shrine, my soul longs to dive in your eyes.
Your lips upon mine, that very moment if never to come, i'd wither and die..
I want to meet forever with you by my side..
These simple words i speak from my heart..

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deja vu... 12:36 AM
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「 Who Is Who Here? 」

no greater pain felt where love once kept
all who hurt unseen refrain
in search of true love and ever afters
lest in time they felt disdain

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deja vu... 11:22 PM
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「 Sow Me Life, I'll Guide Your Kite. 」

Life like the sea
some wallow to be
the shallow unafraid
the curious feel the curse
the deeper they dwelled
their breath they felt slain in dead pace
strangled they felt by echoes the light bore
those bullish hands
now gave in to black

carried by waves
sure to shore
washed upon the lips of surrender
adorn in white
the bread of no soul
moulded to be placed between lumber
the bed of everlasting slumber
to be claimed by the cracks of the earth

the mellow meadows
glazed by the morning glare
a silence i heard before birth
peace the word if yet found
all torn asunder from the world of blunders
the perished are calm
the beauty is no flounder
the wind, a seduction
flaunting the scars of burning time

Why have you answers?
When the one in question has not been sown..

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deja vu... 12:15 AM
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「 Mailer-Daemon@heaven.com 」

A year on and still tryin to get over your death...
i'd do anything to see you again my love...
at least to say goodbye..
let's at least pretend to make one up..
you left so suddenly..
leavin me alone and bare..
my only plea, to hold you again..

who do I share it with,
my gain and my pain?
Only sorrows echo through my smile and the cheers..

Yours Truly

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deja vu... 1:19 AM
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「 Glass Boy 」

you look through me at the world

so i cracked to get your attention

in a milliion pieces though
my tears are shrapnels to your skin

ever careful not to cut your surface
to cause you pain when i'm skin deep

oh flesh i never wanted to make you bleed

i still remember through cold nights and privacy
i've been there to suit your needs

...now just a peril
...to be rid off
replaced and thrown away..

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deja vu... 1:16 AM
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「 Untitled 」

Undivine valentine
you cling on diamonds
take on the lips of a stranger
oh, sour heart
of hate
of regret
spite
why do you envy the one whose love age like wine?

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deja vu... 4:44 AM
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「 Tell Me Love... 」

how does one, who is blind visualize beauty?
speak of it
sing of it
how does one, who sees, go blind?

if love is blind?
the sightless had seen
to live in love
is to be forever blind
how does he speak of beauty
not even seen

how does one, who is blind
see sparks
speaks of it
how does he....
oh, how does he......

love is sound
i say....
love is sound
gentle melodies
gashing chords
gargantuan drums
all felt
when love pulled your heart strings
love lurks unseen...

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deja vu... 1:28 AM
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「 To Start To End (Dying Wish) 」

THEY STARTED
with eyes closed
stepping through their fears
ever zealous
the young hearts set adrift
into the surreal forever

WHEN IT ENDS
shower me
with fragments of memories
of piercing past
the pain, a pleasure
the pain
my pleasure

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deja vu... 1:42 AM
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「 09 」

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deja vu... 2:26 PM
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「 Abstracts Of A Dream (When you are there) 」

look up at the sky
the word a waste

the air i breathe
to utter

it's nothing you don't know
and then i wrote it

the open sky
before it closes
take in as much
no one to stop you
how you may

the sky
of whom
colours felt your eyes

a simple tilt
does so
oh idle heart
sound mind

look into
and in there
look up
listen carefully
the idle sky...

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deja vu... 1:06 AM
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「 Set Free 」

A heathen
Bereft of sanity
Induced with alcohol
Sees everything as gold

A clumsy fool
Trips
Falls

A sense of déjà vu
like dew on the fields
of infinite mornings
each time he steals her glance

Not among glitters and stars
kept just high enough
away from everyone

Everyone else but him
to set free



and i set free...

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deja vu... 1:29 AM
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「 A Fallen's Will 」

I'm falling
Falling
Destined to hit the ground hard
Tidal waves to slap me about
Yet in quiet dissent
a man's will it's called
I close my eyes
in hope and prayer
in amicable defeat
for one's palm i can rest on
forever and ever
Till wake do me part

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deja vu... 11:42 AM
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「 Boundaries? 」

Love has no boundaries.
It pushes till it hurts.

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deja vu... 11:40 AM
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「 Memories (before i go to bed) 」

stills in my mind
split by seconds
all scattered

blossomed in hearts
tainted in mind
sadness and joy
and just

farther than stars
as clear as sunrise
memories dim like sunset

still..
memories...live on
and the last line will always
sound familiar..

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deja vu... 11:36 AM
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「 December 」

It's December. So depressing. Living dualist.

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deja vu... 12:01 AM
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「 Nap 」

I wanna nap too.

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deja vu... 11:55 PM
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「 Love, not had. 」

Reminiscence of the coloured sky
When fireworks caught your eyes
In surrender, a certain calm
A thunder stolen
not for the first time

A piece of a broken heart
to slit my blues
a deeper red, in bloom

Death
Despair
Barren dreams
carved on my wounds
Repeatedly repeat repeatedly

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deja vu... 3:00 AM
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「 Moira 」

The look of love
What have you for me
Eyes rested
Upon infinite stars
Shooting yellow from the grey

For tonight
If she was Juliet
Let me be Romeo
A gift i gave
To remember
moments we shared

Oh, modern love
Numbers we exchanged
Figuring out
fairy tales with ever after
The start of any end

An Israeli girl
Who carried guns
Fought wars
Proven by scars
Pierced a spear
Right through my heart

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deja vu... 1:42 AM
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